fuuuuuuuuuuuhk.

okkkkkkkk. so i felt the need for BLOGGING! i haven't had a neeed for awhile.

probably not since xanga. hah!

it's mostly because i'm putting of my "studying towards perfection" for white sensei. [japanese.]
stupid doushi no uta. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I DON'T WANNA DO IT!


and. i am upset because. Nordstrom has s t i l l n o t r e s p o n d e d t o m e for the internship.
it is really pissing me off.

• My friend got an "acceptance e-mail."
• they said it would be a LETTER!.
  
• It has been a month since they said I would receive the LETTER in the mail.
• I really want a joB!
• Waiting should not be a hobby of mine.

If you see this Nordstrom.. i don't hate you.. just let me know. Or i will call you. && you don't want that. [[actually it wouldn't make a difference because i'll act as if you've done no wrong, and was 'just wondering' if you happened to know if i was accepted yet.]]

ermmmmm. 10 more days of school left. i. can't. take. it. i just want to sleep. for 2 whole days.
have no one talk to me. do whatever. ... omg. that's my dream. my new heaven! i neeeed this! this is what i am working towards now! YESSSSSSSSSS! will this be possible? can my mother go for twenty whole minutes while i'm home w/o screaming, singing, snarkling, snooching, or STOOPING?!?!? i can't wait for these days to come. be on the look out. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! idk if i should lose contact w/ the internet, or the tv. hmmm. i don't think i'd be able to do it. i'd feel like i was missing out. or what if someone was attacked and needed my help? ! I AM TOO CONCERNED W/ EVERYYYONNEEEEEE. i am not attached.. oh not at all.. just concerned. && i hate it. oh so much. maybe i'll do it when herny leaves. but i would like to do it the first two days i have of summer. we will see.



i guess i'm done. more studying. i don't want to. as you know.









bye.

-Tracy!